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5/13/18 Morning Thoughts

May 13, 2018

I have this weird anticipation of the unknown going on. What’s my life going to be like after dad is gone? How does it change? Why won’t I or my life be the same again?

So many questions.

Watching him in his hospital bed, in a room that we spent our childhoods watching movies with our friends, struggling to find the correct words, knowing that half the things he is saying aren’t making sense, it makes me so sad. He knows people are visiting to say goodbye. It breaks my heart wide open. He’s telling me how much he loves me and that he’s grateful for all I’m doing for him.

Today is Mother’s Day. In a month it will be Father’s Day. He likely will be gone by then. Tomorrow is my parent’s 41st wedding anniversary.

My mom’s grace is blowing me away. Her strength is formidable. She keeps talking about looking forward, keeping joy in her heart, and being so glad to have me and my brother. She’s grateful for the home she and dad built. That my dad’s hard work has created a place where we were a family together and that he can now come to the end of his life in this same space.

Someday this will get easier. Today isn’t that day.


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